From the recordings Rearview and Just A Girl
The Hero’s Journey
It was a Monday. March 16, 2020. It was the last shift I tended bar at the local pub. I had been with the company for a little over 7 years. It was an Irish pub and its first day of closing would be St. Patrick’s Day. This crew was tight! I mean, we all really felt like family. There was not one of us that was out of place so to speak. When we all were told to close up I had everyone over to my place so that we could all hang out together and have our goodbyes. It seems so silly now.
We barbecued, broke out the guitar (there were a few musicians among us) and we sang songs. This group of people was my home away from home for quite some time and they still mean so much to me each and every one of them. During the initial shut down, I would call all the peeps on FaceTime. I wanted to see them, talk to them, feel like normal in a sense. I’m an extravert. I have always responded well to group environments. I absolutely love to meet new people. When the whole world shut down I think quite a few of us shut down right along with it. There was a sense across the nation of uncertainty. No one knew anything about COVID so we all stayed in for the most part.
I remember being a little maniac about a week and a half into lockdown. I walked outside of my place and sat in the street for about an hour just crying. I was feeling helpless and a little hopeless I’m afraid to admit. But I was not alone. I felt that sincerely. I walked inside and grabbed my guitar. I sat in the window seat with that guitar and wrote this song. It didn’t take me long from start to finish. It felt like the song just poured out of my fingers bringing life to everything that I was feeling in that moment.
I wrote this song with the intention of communicating to the world that no matter what, you can get through anything when you feel love. That can be from your Lord, your best friend, your Mama, even your dog! All any of us want in this world is to feel love and share it with others. When the world stood still, I wanted to remind them that they are not alone if they open their eyes. Love is all around you if you choose to embrace it.
Disbelief
Mockery
I just can’t believe that something like this could ever be
Staying home
On the phone
Just trying to connect with all my love’s that mean so much to me
And it’s gonna be okay just breathe
It’s gonna be okay
It’s gonna be okay just breathe
It’s gonna be okay
Lean on me
Lean on me
Start to see
A change in me
Just trying to believe the very best for humanity
Staying home
Put down the phone
And hold on tight to what feels right
And forget all that is wrong